certifiable in the wild wild west

2010-07-28T06:24:00.000-07:00

Wondering where in the hell the year has gone!? I feel like I've accomplished nothing...have not progressed in any area of my life...if fact, I've taken a couple HUGE steps backwards! The immediate future isn't looking all that bright either. I have a big move looming before me with unfinished issues here - but who knows, could get some resolution on a couple before I depart, but not really holding out or placing bets at this time! In all honesty, I believe the majority of society has taken a permanent break from reality. When I hear things being said, I'm asking myself, "what the hell are they THINKING?" Simple answer...they're not. I've spent most of my life taking care of others (just how it ended up), and mind you, I've never done so thinking "what's in it for me?" But honestly, it would be nice to have a little bit of a break now and then...a little reward to keep those thoughts of "why am I bothering?" at bay for a little while longer.

2010-04-01T19:52:00.000-07:00

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1. It's the first of April, do you play April Fool's jokes on anyone? I do everything as always, which puts everyone on their toes, wondering if I'm gonna pull some stunt!

2. Do you like to eat sardines? No, and I don't like to play with them either!

3. Have you ever played racketball? Yep...until I got beaned on the back of the head as it bounced on the back wall...those little blue balls are HARD!

4. If eating at a fast food joint that has a dollar menu, do you order a bunch of different dollar items or just go ahead and get a regular meal? IF I eat fast food, it's usually Wendy's (which isn't here in this neck of the desert) and I order strictly from the dollar menu.

5. Have you ever taken a brand new pencil and sharpened it in an electric sharper until it was almost gone just because you were bored? Not an electric one, but did use a hand crank one and sharpened it down to a nub so people would ask how long I had been using it!

6. Do you have any old broken computers still sitting around your home? I moved from THAT house!

7. Ricky Martin came out this week stating he is gay. Were you shocked, had a feeling, "who?" or just didn't care? Just don't care (and didn't really know about it till you mentioned it here.)

8. If marijuana is legalized, do you think it should have a luxury tax added onto it? Sure, why not? Alcohol is taxed!

9. What's the oddest thing you have sitting on your computer desk right now or where ever it is you may be sitting with a laptop (you could be sitting at a Starbucks with an alien from Mars for all we know)? I have a pine cone chick sitting on my computer desk that my grandson made for me a few Easters back...the pine cone has cotton stuffed in the crevices and he cut out yellow foamie wings, an orange foamie beak, and white foamies with black inserts for eyes! Something you just don't see everyday on a computer desk! 10. Have you ever bumped into a former lover and found out they were now gay or straight depending on your relationship with them? I try not to bump into former lovers (not that I have THAT many!), but I've not heard they switched preference...though they may find that out about me one day!

11. Have you ever held a tarantula? Nope, I usually do the "ewwwww...cooties....get away from me" dance when I see one.

12. Shower- curtain, door, walk-in, or do you just roll around in the dirt to get the stink off? Have a curtain now, had doors, and a walk in previously. Next move, I think I'll try the "roll around in the dirt" trick and see if it works!

13. Which commercial is the most annoying to you on TV or radio? ANY of them...I have a DVR!

2010-03-29T21:11:00.000-07:00

The Queen's Meme #31 ~ The What Not Meme

What NOT To Do when you’re…..

1. On a first date - talk about the incessant itch "down there."

2. Intoxicated - propose or accept a proposal.

3. In the shower - get on your knees.

4. At your ex’s wedding - flirt with your ex's "soon to be" bride/groom.

5. In jail - close your eyes.

6. Being stalked - Invite the person in for a drink.

7. Stuck to an igloo - Stick your tongue on the yellow block.

8. In sewing class - Make the others laugh so hard you put them in stitches!

9. Asleep in a helium balloon - Sleep walk.

10. At a birthday party for twins - Forget who's who.

11. On a nude beach - Forget your sunscreen.

12. At the opera - Snore.

13. You’re falling in love - Tell the person you're falling in love.

14. Low on gasoline in a bad part of town - Ask for directions to the nearest gas station.

15. Having a baby - Question the paternity.

16. On fire - Put gasoline in your car.

17. Lost at the mall - Ask where the nearest exit is.

18. At a single’s dance - Flash your big engagement ring!

19. Riding a bike on the Jersey Turnpike - Admit you're lost (why else would I be there?)

20. Driving your significant other's car - Sneeze on the steering wheel.

21. Being robbed at gunpoint - Ask where the person purchased their gun.

22. Kissing - Burp or smoke.

23. Paying the hotel cashier - Set up "dates" for the evening on my cell phone.

24. Buying lingerie - talk about the incessant itch "down there."

24. Commenting on a blog - be rude.

25. In Queen Mimi's dungeon - be inpatient.

2010-03-29T19:05:00.000-07:00

Manic Monday #205

How do you feel about couples that share an email address? I say more power to 'em. Obviously don't have anything to hide and are comfortable with the knowledge of who their significant other is conversing with. I think it would be nice to have that sort of comfort level with someone and not worry about being "surprised" by something that might show up on email.

How open about your life are you in the various online arenas? Fairly open depending on the question and my mood...I can be quite snarky some days and am sometimes surprised by my own sense of humor!

On average, how many hours a week do you spend online? Do you think it's too much? I'm sure it's in excess of 20 hours, simply because I'm home on the weekends. I don't think it's too much because I accomplish what I want and enjoy myself.Besides, it keeps me from watching TV...well, maybe not...I usually have it on in the background!

2010-03-28T15:22:00.000-07:00

Today, though not over for several hours, turned out to be very nice weather-wise. I put in a day's work to earn a day off for the upcoming week (gonna work 1/2 day Friday so I can head up to BC to see my kids for the weekend and will use the other 1/2 day when Eric's flight comes in.) I felt very productive and satisfied in what I accomplished - YAY ME!

Sunday Stealing: The 35 Questions X 2 Meme: Part One

1. How far away is the last person you kissed? Not far enough...

2. Has someone ever told you they would be with you forever? yeah, the person I married (then split from because his behaviors weren't conducive to keeping those vows).

3. Last person you were in a car with? My friend Brett, who took me home after I returned from a conference in SC.

4. Any plans for tomorrow? Work (and hopefully not dealing with one of the employees I supervise).

5. How long does it take for you to take a shower? Depends on whether I decide to masturbate.

6. Best friend or close friends? More like acquaintances.

7. Is tomorrow going to be a good day? It's what I hope for every day...

8. Did you kiss anyone friday? Does "kiss off" count?

9. Ever thrown up in public? If I did, I was too drunk or stoned to know, and since no one told me about it, they were either embarrassed by and didn't mention it or I didn't.

10. What's on your mind RIGHT NOW? What job prospects are in the near future, which will determine where I'll be moving...

11. Who was the last person you talked to? My dad in Ohio.

12. What is the WORST subject they teach at school? Sex education - with all the young "moms to be," somebody isn't getting the word out!

13. Have you seen anyone lately that you don't get along with? One of the employees I supervise makes it extremely difficult to be civil to her, but I manage.

14. What is your favourite colour top to wear? Clean.

15. Have you ever been in a car accident? Yes, because the other person in the other car was the moron who didn't know how to drive, steer, pay attention, stay conscious.

16. What's the closest thing to you that's green? The indicator lights on my internet box.

17. Where would you like to be right now? Settling into my new location (and starting my new job).

18. Write down some lyrics to the song you're listening to? I can see clearly now, the rain is gone. I can see all obstacles in my way. I think I can make it now, the rain is gone. All of the bad feelings have disappeared.

19. How many dogs do you have? Does that count my tired feet?

20. Is anything bugging you right now? Yes.

21. Is life going right for you now? Probably, but I'm not satisfied yet.

22. Is there someone you care about more than yourself? No.

23. What made you laugh today? Watching the movie "Maverick."

24. What was the last movie you watched? Maverick

25. Whats the last conversation you had about? My job (with my dad).

26. What were you doing at 7:00 this morning? Waking up (woke up at 2:00 a.m., chatted with a couple friends on Facebook, and went back to sleep around 4:30 a.m.)

27. Do you like your hair long or short? Long.

28. Do you want to see somebody right now? Yes.

29. Do you like the rain? Yes.

30. Did you have a valentine this year? I got a card from my grandsons.

31. The last person you kissed needs you at 3 am, would you go? Yes.

32. Would you honestly say you'd risk your life for someone else? Would depend on who it is.

33. Honestly, if you could go back 1 month and change something would you? Yes.

34. How do you feel about boys smoking? NASTY!

35. Could you see yourself with someone forever? I did, but it's a mutual thing...I guess nobody can see themselves with me forever...at least not the way it should be.

2010-03-27T08:13:00.000-07:00

Seems that I've taken a sabbatical from my blog...unintentional of course...just something that happened. So rather that try to catch up with a vengeance, I'll give a short update since mid-January.
I was finally hired full time as the 'Family and Community Services Manager' for the local county Head Start program. It's a new position and there were LOTS of applicants from local folks, but I landed it. Funny thing is, I walked out of that interview feeling like I blew it. Since then, I've gone to Washington DC and Charleston SC for conferences and training. I'm slowly "getting it," but also feel like I should be doing more. However, my boss (the Executive Director) told me that she doesn't fully expect that I'll be 'up and running' for a full year. Now I don't feel so inept. Am getting a bit of resistance from one of the employees I supervise (she applied for and didn't get this job), and dealing with some minor sabotage and undermining, but am going through the channels to deal with it. I am doing okay with the others, so that helps.
I ended a friendship with someone and have moved forward on another relationship. Eric is moving out here in the next couple weeks and we're gonna "give it a go." I'm not wanting to have any expectations and wonder if that's the best approach, but console myself by telling me that it's the safest approach.
All that aside, I found out that licensing requirements are a bit different here in this state and if I can't get in with a federal employer, may have to return to Ohio to get my supervision hours. Deadline for moving will be this summer if I don't get in to a federal position...no matter what though, will be moving from this area.
My kids moved 4 hours further north in BC, but they seem to be happier and that's what really matters in the grand scheme of things. Hopeful that everything will finally fall into place for them (which will reduce the stress factor for me).

Saturday 9: You're My Best Friend

1. Outside of your romantic life, do you currently have a best friend? Haven't had a "best friend" in a very long time.

2. Regarding your future, what is the best thing you could hope for? Stable health and happiness.

3. Have you ever helped out a friend with basic needs, like rent or food? If yes. what did you do? Does family count? If so, helped with basic needs (and I've been on the receiving end as well.)

4. If they re-instituted the draft (for both genders and your were of age) would you go, or would find some way out of it? I'd go if they'd take me...I feel I have the mettle to deal with it.

5. Tell us one thing you wish you hadn't let yourself do. Fall in love indiscriminately.

6. Tell us about the last time you bragged. More like "tooted my own horn," but I feel I sold myself pretty hard at my last job interview.

7. What area are you wisest in? Hindsight.

8. Tell us about something that happened that at the time made you "full of yourself". Thinking I found love again.

9. Has there ever been a time that you wanted to try something in the bedroom, but were afraid to ask? Nope (part of that 'indiscriminate' trait I seem to possess.)

Just exactly who am I?

2010-01-14T18:02:00.000-08:00

I'm definitely on the cusp and today's horoscope captures that intriguing little detail perfectly!
TAURUS (April 20-May 20). You were born innocent, and in many ways you are innocent still. Embrace that. Though it may be fun to discover how the magic trick works, it's far more fun to believe.
I sometimes feel more gullible than innocent, but very true of my nature. I go into situations with a smile and lots of hope because I just don't know any better at times. DAMN! Wish I could sell that - I'd be a millionaire...instead, I'm rich with friends who tell me I'm what they look forward to...that I put a smile on their face and in their heart when things are grim and that I somehow have the perfect timing for it...PRICELESS! And do I believe in miracles? Why, yes I do!

GEMINI (May 21-June 21). You'll be an excellent judge of character, but the question is whether you will follow what your inner voice suggests. In order to do so, you must let go of needing the situation to go a certain way.
I do agree that I am an excellent judge of character and because of it, I've met some really great people. I have to admit that I haven't followed what my inner voice suggested and got a broken heart...because I wanted it to go a certain way and it wasn't meant to...

BTW, thanks Holiday! http://www.creators.com/lifestylefeatures/horoscopes/horoscopes-by-holiday.html

is it over yet?

2010-01-13T15:39:00.000-08:00

TAURUS (April 20-May 20). Balance and moderation are in order. There are those around you who will want to push you in a direction that is too extreme. Be reasonable. Also: Avoid spicy or unusually rich foods.

I'm heading into the latter part of the day and tucked in safely at home, so doubt sincerely there's any danger of being pushed or eating things I shouldn't (unless someone shows up at my door and persuasively invites me out to eat rich foods!) Feeling a bit discouraged about the job situation, so expanding my search out toward Spokane. May have to move closer to a big city, even though I don't want to. If something comes up in the next month, it will only bring relief and nothing more...and I should be happy, but I know I will only feel exhausted from the effort...

Another day...another few dollars

2010-01-12T07:18:00.000-08:00

Anyway, so another couple of weeks of WAITING for the outcome of interviews. Still have to pound the pavement though to get MORE opportunities of "hurry up and wait" for jobs that for whatever reason, I don't seem to fit THEIR qualifications. The sad thing is, when I ask them why I wasn't chosen, it's always something that my qualifications can't possibly hope to compete. Example: "the person who has been volunteering, doing it part-time, or applied more times than you got it." You would think with this place being as remote and rural as it is would run out of these types of candidates, but doesn't seem like it's going to end any time too soon...

now what?

2010-01-10T20:04:00.000-08:00

Manic Monday #196

1. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself? Be rid of the abuse in my past.

2. Do you believe everything happens for a reason? Yes I do, even though I don't agree with it sometimes. I believe that situations change in order for a new (and hopefully better) situation to come in.

3. What would be your dream job? Running a shop for low-income adults trying to get back in the job market (will be a referral process) to get a few interview outfits (clothing, shoes, etc). I've discovered that quite a few people don't have appropriate clothing for interviews and may get overlooked because of it. Also serves to boost their confidence and self-esteem.

Went to my interview and met with a panel of seven people - no pressure there! Won't know anything before end of next week, but that will be the beginning of the process. Top 3 candidates are notified. The #1 candidate undergoes a background check, credit check, and drug and alcohol screen. If anything comes back to your detriment, offer of employment is withdrawn and the next candidate is notified and goes through the same process. I was enthusiastic during the interview (which was followed by an essay portion to test your writing and critical thinking abilities). I walked out of there not really feeling great, but that may come from going through this process only to bumped out by a current employee or somebody's friend/relative. Not sure what else I can do - I give 100%, but my confidence is shaken as I'm walking out the door. I'm treating "job searching" as a full time job, but there's only so many places I can apply before I become a nuisance. Not sure if anything is coming up where I'm currently employed part-time, on-call (which doesn't meet my basic living expenses). I can feel discouragement elbowing its way in and taking up residence next to insomnia on the couch!

"I wish you could see you through my eyes"

2010-01-10T12:31:00.000-08:00

What my name means (this is the name I use, which is a derivation of my given first name at birth)

Your first name of Ronnie has given you a quick-minded, sensitive nature.
It gives you a clever, creative ability in art, music, singing, or drama and an appreciation for refined surroundings (I am a writer at heart and deeply affected by music).
Your sociable nature expresses affection, kindness, and thoughtfulness to the extent that it is difficult for you not to be affected by others and governed by your emotions, rather than by logic and reason (and sometimes to a fault).
As you respond to love and encouragement from others, your romantic and dreamy nature can easily lead you into love affairs (and a broken heart).
Although the name Ronnie creates the urge to understand others, we point out that it causes you to be emotional and temperamental (most definitely out of frustration).

Not sure why I'm having feelings of doubt about so many things, but I am. I usually have feelings of self-doubt and am working to change that in myself on a few different levels.

TAURUS (April 20-May 20). Your daily habits keep you in an enjoyable rhythm. One of your activities will be prevented or interrupted by an unexpected twist in the plot. You'll adapt quickly and retain your excellent mood (was supposed to go to the casino with a friend, but an impending family death called him away).

GEMINI (May 21-June 21). You will make a concession so that a friend's life will go more smoothly. It's a selfless act, but it will work out for you. When your relationships are going well, your personal and financial pictures brighten, too. (As mentioned above, assured friend that there was no need for an apology to postpone a trip to the casino due to a family tragedy. I also gave him the opportunity to talk about the effect his younger brother's impending death was having on him, which helped him deal with it a bit better).

Ever wonder just where you're headed?

2010-01-09T04:02:00.000-08:00

Dreamed I was on a rocket ship. Got strapped into this HUGE helmet, but didn't get things attached as required. So before lift off, I could hear a woman say "we're gonna defer to Michelangelo since he WAS the original inventor." (something to do with the lining to my helmet). Anyway, I woke up because I was a bit claustrophobic even though I could move my head around in the helmet.

Saturday 9: Call Me

1. Who is someone that phones you routinely that you never seem to be up to talk to, but you are not ready to push them out of your life? Does texting on the phone count? If so, that would HAVE to be Dan. Mostly because he ends EVERY text "YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL LADY" even though I've thanked him and told him it makes me uncomfortable. May have to add him to my "do not call list."

2. What is something that effects you deeply, to your core, no matter your mood or what else is going on in your life? When my son (or members of his family) are hurting over something (too long of a story to go into it here). However, things appear to be going okay for now.

3. Tell us of something that relaxes you and always makes you happy. Having things turn out the way I really want.

4. If you could take the train from anywhere to anywhere, where would 'anywhere' be? From here to eternity.

5. If you could look into the future, how far down the road would you like to see? 10 years? 100 years? A million? The next mega millions drawing so I could get the winning lottery numbers.

6. Did you do your shopping online for this Christmas, how did it go? Did things come in on time? Any significant failures? ...and if you didn't, will you consider trying online shopping sometime this year? I actually did. I was quite pleased and saved some money. They arrived on time and I will certainly do so this coming holiday season.

7. What people or projects are worth your time, money or effort? Those that further the good cause.

8. Think back when you were in high school. Are you proud of the way you dressed, or do you wish you could go back and change it all? I don't think "pride" had anything to do with how I dressed, but I was happy with it. I looked classy, stylish, and comfortable, so would not desire to go back and change THAT.

9. Do any of your friends, family or co-workers know about your blogs? For those that do, did you tell them or have they stumbled upon it by themselves? Only a couple friends know. I used to have a link to it, but removed it because I didn't want some people reading it.

the cocktail hour

2010-01-08T07:16:00.000-08:00

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1. There are places that a person should never venture again.
2. Quit your GD whining and blow those clouds away.
3. Standing in the midst of chaos, she throws off the challenge with a shrug.
4. Hot dog treasures and tater tots for dinner, oh boy.
5. He went out tiger hunting but brought back three missionaries instead.
6. Downers keep my mind from wandering.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to possibly going to see a movie (It's Complicated), tomorrow my plans include finishing my manuscript, and Sunday, I want to prepare for my Monday morning job interview !

I'm on the cusp, so here's my possibilities:

TAURUS (April 20-May 20). Sure, every choice matters. But every choice is not hugely momentous. When it comes to fulfilling your life's purpose, there are many perfect routes. Just choose one that feels right and don't agonize.

GEMINI (May 21-June 21). Fortune favors you when you shift into an area of interest that is foreign to your expertise. Being a newcomer is exciting. You'll be game for the adventure and fabulously passionate about the learning process.

Had a very good conversation with Eric. We talked about a couple of things that needed to be talked about and dealt with - success! I feel my love for him growing each day, which is a difficult feat given my experience with such matters. He told me that he fell in love with me all over again and I truly believe him. He loves me unconditionally and extraordinarily ~ what more could a woman have?

can I blame this on Rio?

2010-01-07T20:52:00.000-08:00

Sat around last night and told some "Chance stories" to my daughter in law. She laughed so hard! Me too....felt pretty good. Before my son and DIL went off to bed, they showed me how to set the sleep timer on the TV so I could watch a movie...got that all set and decided to get Hunter up to the bathroom in hopes he'd have a dry night for himself. I picked him up outta bed and could smell the sleep swirling around his little head. He laid his head on my shoulder and wrapped his arms round my neck - brought a few tears to my eyes because he reminded me of Chance at that age. He sat on the pot, did #1, and went right back to sleep. I settled myself on the couch and don't even remember getting 5 minutes into the movie...I awoke hearing Hunter saying "i hear noises." I walked over, picked him up (still dry), and asked him "what noises?" All he said was "san poil noises." HUH???????? So I cuddled him on the couch and he was back out in 30 seconds. I put him back to bed. A couple hours later, he was in the hallway again saying "I see shadow and hear san poil noises." The only thing I can figure is he saw the cat (that only comes out from her hidey hole under Kim and Gayle's bed at night). He wanted to cuddle with me again and we both woke up together on the couch this morning (and yes, he was still dry!) Had to come home earlier than I wanted because I have a job interview tomorrow morning as well, but I had a great time and am looking forward to seeing them again soon and may even take them to see a movie.
As I'm writing this, I'm waiting for a "friend" to show up with my laptop that he had someone look at for me. (He offered to fix it and I told him no.) I'm so perturbed because he's two hours late (so far). Seems to be an epidemic here in this town...people not being courteous, etc. Or perhaps it's me...I'm not worthy of their effort? I don't consider them worthy of mine anymore.
What's truly bothering me about this "friend" situation is that there's more to it than I'm willing or able to put to words, but suffice to say I'm hurting over it.
The "friend" just showed up (2 1/2 hours after he said he'd be here). He attempted to engage me in small talk, but before I could tell him I really didn't want to visit, he pulled out his phone to answer a fucking text message from someone, I thanked him for bringing my laptop back and told him to have a good night as I opened the door for him. See ya!

TAURUS (April 20-May 20). Despite the moments of self-doubt that every human experiences from time to time, you are more than competent to cope with the basic challenges of life. Keep reminding yourself that you are powerful.

Time out

2010-01-06T14:09:00.000-08:00

Drove up to BC for a couple days to get away. It's odd, because once I get here, I want to get back home...not because I don't want to see my family, but because I'm afraid I'll miss out on an opportunity for a job interview or something equally as important. I do enjoy the drive up and enjoy the time with my grandsons. Now if I could only land a full time job so I can afford to take them somewhere when I come to visit...hopefully soon enough.j

Horoscope (I'm on the cusp between Taurus and Gemini, so I usually look at both):

TAURUS (April 20-May 20). You marvel at the glass-half-empty people who are always bringing up negative things, because for you the whole point of life is to see the good wherever you can. You'll connect with a special friend who shares that gift.

GEMINI (May 21-June 21). You feel like you're somebody who never wins anything, but everyone is a winner eventually. You just have to keep taking chances. Your number just came up, and you're about to find out.

Maybe a job looming on the horizon???

This road leads home

2010-01-05T02:56:00.000-08:00

It's 1:30 in the afternoon...nary a call from anyone about the 4 different jobs I responded to in December. I can understand waiting until after the holidays (somewhat) to contact people for interviews...but HOW long after the holidays???? Do they actually NEED people in those positions or are they fucking (a derivative of my favorite cuss word) with people who TRULY need a full time job? I'm already formulating a back up plan that will go into effect this summer, which will hopefully coincide with my son and DIL successfully getting into their own place. Had thought about applying for a job in Alaska, but they don't have any relocation assistance, so not gonna bother! And if I was considering a job there (2400+ miles away from here), no reason why I shouldn't consider my home state of Ohio again...which would address a couple other situations too.
Update: Have an interview for a position with Head Start. The position is for Family/Community Services Manager. I'm reading up the responsibilities and preparing for a good interview...will keep you posted...

Is it Spring yet?

2010-01-04T16:01:00.000-08:00

Ever have one of THOSE days? THEY know what I'm talking about...
Is it Spring yet?
Not according to the calendar...or the weather ~ DAMN! Lots of snow today, got a few pics. Spent the morning at the laundromat; met a guy named Phillipe, who was doing his laundry. His Mexican accent was barely understandable, but he was good company and a pretty good conversationalist. We said our goodbyes and headed out into the snow, bidding each other a safe journey home.
I'm torn between two situations and trying to figure out what I should do. For now, gonna play this one close till things become a bit clearer at this end. At times, I feel I've gone too far to change direction and at other times, afraid of going further into the abyss of what is my current life situation. I really love my current location here in the north central remote area of Washington. However, it's been a tough 7 months, though have had much needed help from my father (THANK YOU DAD!)

Manic Monday

What did you get in trouble for the most when you were a kid? Not doing what I was supposed to be doing (although most times, I didn't know what I was supposed to be doing).

Which is your wish that is not yet fulfilled? Be married to someone who loves me for me.

If you have to choose a movie title for your life story, what would that be? A Secret Insanity (already writing the manuscript).

Randomized chaos

2010-01-03T01:40:00.000-08:00

1. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up? Gary

2. You can flip a switch that will wipe any band or musical artist out of existence. Which one will it be? So many to choose from...

3. Who would you really like to just punch in the face? David

4. What is your favorite cheese? provolone

5. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your immediate disposal. What kind will you make? Thinly sliced turkey breast, provolone cheese, avocado, romaine lettuce, with a small amount of mayonnaise on whole grain white bread.

6. You have the opportunity to sleep with the movie celebrity of your choice. We are talking no-strings-attached sex and it can only happen once. Who is the lucky celebrity of your choice? Harvey Keitel

7. You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who do you pick? Tom Petty

8. Now that you’ve slept with two different people in a row, you seem to be having an excellent day because you just came across a hundred-dollar bill on the sidewalk. Holy shit, a hundred bucks! How are you gonna spend it? Take my grandsons to their favorite fun places!

9. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? Columbus Ohio.

10. Upon arrival to the aforementioned location, you get off the plane and discover another hundred-dollar bill. Shit! Now that you are in the new location, what are you gonna do? Take my father out for a nice dinner.

11. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. It is…? Sangria

12. Rufus appears out of nowhere with a time-traveling phone booth. You can go anytime in the PAST. What time are you traveling to and what are you going to do when you get there? 1968 and I'm going to use my voice!

13. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place? No anger.

14. You have been given the opportunity to create the half-hour TV show of your own design. What is it called and what’s the premise? Don't lose Hope - instilling hope in those who feel they have none.

15.What is your favorite curse word? FUCK!

16.One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do? Get the FUCK! outta there!

17. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the item? My fucking computer!

18. The Angel of Death has descended upon you. Fortunately, the Angel of Death is pretty cool and in a good mood, and it offers you a half-hour to do whatever you want before you bite it. Whatcha gonna do in that half-hour? Have incredible fucking sex and a 26 minute orgasm.

19. You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What’s it gonna be? Mind reading.

20. You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again? The first time I felt true love.

21.You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? Fucking Abuse.

22. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world! Bitchin’! What country are you going to live in now? In fucking England.

23. This question still counts, even for those of you who are under age. Check it out. You have been eternally banned from every single bar in the world except for ONE. Which one is it gonna be? The closest fucking one.

24. Hopefully you didn’t mention this in the super-powers question…. If you did, then we’ll just expand on that. Check it out… Suddenly, you have gained the ability to FLOAT!!! Whose house are you going to float to first, and be like “Dude, check it out…I can FLOAT!”? My son's house - my grandsons would think I was REALLY cool!

25. The constant absorption of magical moonbeams mixed with the radioactive vegetables you consumed earlier has given you the ability to resurrect the dead famous-person of your choice. So which celebrity will you bring back to life? Jim Morrison, of course.

26. The Celestial Gates of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person, etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back? Papaw.

27. What’s your theme song? The Rose

So, it's just now the 3rd of January, but wanted to get a headstart on the day...if anything exciting happens, I'll add it later in the day...

2010-01-02T11:47:00.000-08:00

What is your pet hate? Liars and cheats.
If you had the choice of living on any planet, then which one it be and why? Now why would I want to move to another planet when I haven't even adjusted to this one yet?
It’s your birthday and everyone forgets what would you do? It happens fairly routinely and I'll do what I usually do...nothing.
Do you think you are good at recycling? I try to be...I cut and paste on the computer, which uses less key strokes on the keyboard, which means less effort and energy on my part, which means I eat less (hmmm) due to less energy needs, which means, well you get my direction...
Cash or credit? Cash, when I have it.
Car or public transport!? I'm a slave to my car, though try to combine trips so I don't use what precious gasoline I can afford to put in it, which cuts down on emissions, which helps the planet...(see #4 above). Besides, no public transportation out here where I live, unless I put my thumb out and use the public at large as my mode of transporation...which is actually a common practice out here!

http://blazingminds.co.uk/category/saturday-six/

The progress on one of my resolutions is going along okay. I'm already procrastinating on the one with a looming deadline, but I'm sure I'll get over that hump and get it done. And only 135 shopping days till my birthday, for those of you referred to in #3 above...and only 356 shopping days till Christmas...GET A MOVE ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-01T19:05:00.000-08:00

Here I am, 7 months later, still looking for a full time job. I did manage to get a part time (REALLY part time) job that doesn't pay all my bills and leaves me shuffling things around each month. My father has helped me off and on, without which I would probably be living outta my car or possibly in a pay by the week motel. Never imagined I'd be in this situation, but here I stand looking out my eyes, but not seeing me. Have a couple (as in two) goals for the first half of this year...okay...three. The first is to obtain full time employment (though I am doing what I need to do, just not getting the interviews or getting hired). The second is to finish my book for review and hopefully get it published. The third thing is to improve my health and all the things implicated in that (better nutrition, excercise regimen, etc).

http://fridayfillins.blogspot.com/

1. Last night: I spent alone, wondering what happened in my life.
2. I hope to not be alone this year.
3. The funniest thing happened when I read my horoscope and it was nothing like what was going on in my life.
4. And then I asked myself...so where do we go from here?
5. He said "I wish you could see you through my eyes;" she said "I wish I could too."
6. We've lost our way along the path and forgot where the journey was leading and it's up to us to find it.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to more mundane loneliness, tomorrow my plans include additional routine rhetoric and Sunday, I want to engage in vapid solitude!

Into the New Year

2009-12-31T23:30:00.000-08:00

We can journey down the same path, but the experience will not be the same. We can come back in, but not through the same door. We can go back, though not as we were before. Sometimes, I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear and I can't help but ask myself how much I'll let it take the wheel and steer. It's driven me before. It seems to have a vague haunting mass appeal. I kept going back to give them the opportunity to apologize. At 48, I realize they won't and now I can move on. As the book comes about, lives will shift...welcome to my world.

2009-12-10T17:57:00.000-08:00

"We take a risk when we open our hearts because the truth is, if we open our hearts, we will get hurt. You can't open your heart and not have some hurt because you're in a human experience..." ~Mary Morrissey

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage." ~Lao Tzu

Cut off a friendship that I can't bear to continue - too wrought with emotional pain for me, and pain has no place where trust is present, at least not in my book. Was easier than I thought, but gonna be tough. I'll just view this as something to get past...like I did when I quit smoking. The pain will pass in time and I'll be healthier. Still gonna miss him.

Update 12/18/2009 : Talked with him and decided we still wanted to maintain a friendship, but I can't. The shallowness that is present is so nauseating that I don't know what the hell I was thinking - men can't be friends with women. The pain is completely gone now and I can't believe I allowed myself to become so distraught over the potential loss of it - what a waste of my time!

Heartstrings

2009-12-09T09:35:00.000-08:00

Beautiful lyrics by Bette Midler...Eric told me that this song "The Rose" reminded him of me...

Some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed

Some say love it is a hunger
an endless aching need
I say love it is a flower
and you it's only seed

It's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
that never takes the chance

It's the one who won't be taken
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying
that never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong

Just remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed
that with the sun's love
in the spring
becomes the rose

2009-12-08T07:23:00.000-08:00

In retrospect and hindsight (which is always 20/20), I'm thankful that others were able to say what should have been said. Those too close oftentimes don't see...I was too close and did not see. Took me some time after backing away...with my tail between my legs in rejection. My vision is much clearer on several levels. However, still finding it difficult to deal with one situation. The hurt was more profound than it should have been...in fact, there should have been no hurt involved given the circumstance from the very beginning. What the mind says, often the heart does not feel; sort of an emotional dissonance rather than a cognitive one. At least that's what I'm telling myself to get through this. Much in keeping with my values and beliefs however, I'm able to understand that the path has been cleared for a purpose...a person...who has been persistent and devoted from the very start. A clear and true purpose of love and devotion. Enduring what I have before him when it comes to matters of the heart. A man in love...with me and now me, in love with him. Do I see or feel this waning even at the prospect of months in front of us before we're together again? No. We both feel and see a strengthening in the bond.
Had a dream last night with my step mother in it. I asked her if we could keep in contact...I woke before she answered. I closed my eyes to force myself back to sleep and dreamstate...only to feel a great sense of loss at the failed attempt.

2009-12-01T22:18:00.000-08:00

The anticipation is gone and the sorrow has turned to renewed promise. Playing it close to the hip and safe is always a good plan. Have decided to seek assistance with my issues of boundaries. There is a friendship I would like to continue, but don't see that as a possibility unless I do something different. Healthy relationships are the key and I never had the tools to accomplish that before now. I've always had two different selves - a public one and a private one. The public one has allowed me to function at work, in college, and with friends. The private one wore a mask to deal with the non-nurturing dysfunctional family in which I was born and raised. Hard truth, but real.

2009-11-23T22:58:00.001-08:00

My heart is aching in two directions - one in sorrow, the other in anticipation. It hurts to know that you're never gonna be #1. Hurts like hell. Feels like walking along the road and the wind picks up, blowing hard against your back and knowing that when you turn around, it's gonna be blowing full gale in your face to get back home - DAMMIT!

2009-11-23T22:58:00.000-08:00

My heart is aching in two directions - one in sorrow, the other in anticipation. DAMMIT!

2009-11-18T07:41:00.000-08:00

Had a really bizarre dream last night. In my old house trying to merge my current furniture with the "old" furniture from my childhood, but not being able to make it work. The old things were comfortable, but not a good fit. The new needs broken in, but the fit is good. And one of my uncles moving in with my dad was key too, though my dad did mention that he was considering it when I talked to him last week. After this past week, quite a dream sequence that sorts through my feelings fairly accurately and parallels the actions I appear to be taking.

2009-11-15T14:28:00.000-08:00

My friend came out from Ohio. We reminisced and laughed and compared notes and feelings. All in all, I can't bring myself to open myself to another relationship. It opens me up to fragile feelings and memories of vulnerability that I don't want to experience again. Now the difficult task of breaking the news because he wants something so much more...

Exerpt from my book

2009-11-08T20:17:00.000-08:00

Solemn promises made to the self
thoughtlessly broken
as passion is felt
I give, I give, I care.
Silent sleep, watching you there
alone again with you
I dare, I fear, I hope.
Awakening slow, craving your touch
calmly turn
to feel as much
I am, I am, alone.
Solemn promises made to the self
courageously kept
though painfully felt
I dream, I dream, of you.

2009-11-02T17:56:00.001-08:00

A Mother's Advice, but not from my mother: "Live a quiet life and be kind to all, especially the old, and listen to the advice of the old. People will respect you if you do this and be kind to you. Do not run after a boy. If a young man wants to marry you, let him come here to see you and come here to live with you. This is the reason I am always telling you to be industrious and how to live, so when you have a home you will be industrious and do right to the people around you." Nodinens (Chippewa), 1929.
Kinda disappointed about my job, mostly because it won't pay my bills, so have to get a day job too. Perfect!

It's Raining, It's Pouring...

2009-10-25T22:58:00.000-07:00

Good news and not so good news...I did get a job with the state. However, it's "intermittent, on-call," though I am approved for overtime and can volunteer for as many days as I want. The pay is not what I was making, but it's a decent wage. This gets my foot in the door for regular employment and benefits when an opening comes up. Won't really know the details until I start on Nov 2.
More good news - very unexpected, though almost not. A classmate has been in love with me for over 30 years and recently told me. My first reaction was disbelief (this just doesn't happen to me) and then my heart melted. We have talked, IMd, and emailed almost everyday since then. He is coming out for a visit next month, and we'll go from there. And always with good news, comes not so good news. I can't bring myself to think or write about it here, at this time because I've been there and know the pain that this situation is causing for another. Having said that, I find myself not caring, or at least not wanting to deal with it on that level.
And then, that brings me to another couple of situations. I am conflicted, though know the situations must be dealt with. Why must hearts hurt?

2009-10-21T18:16:00.000-07:00

Nothing a like a memory to jerk you back to reality.

2009-10-19T04:46:00.000-07:00

http://moodymonday.org/

Peaceful, confident, and calm.

vigilance

2009-10-18T10:34:00.000-07:00

http://www.cfcl.com/vlb/Memes/wordbeads.shtml#_jump
The abbe loomed over the moonlit meadow, perched high in the orifice of a hanging valley. As the night progressed, the yelp of coyotes echoed off the canyon walls like the rebound of a rubber ball in an enclosed room. I kept myself busy in preparation for my journey lest I be consumed by the distractions surrounding me.

2009-10-17T17:53:00.000-07:00

http://samanthasaturday9.blogspot.com/
1. When you were young, what did you want to be when you grew up? A nurse, but then changed to doctor...ended up a social worker.
2. Did you ever pursue that career? Yes, got my master's degree.
3. If you are not in that field, what changed? I'm in my chosen field.
4. What is your current job? Social worker for abused and neglected children.
5. What's the best part of what you do? Helping children.
6. Do you have plans to do something else down the road? Not at this time. Spent too much money and time to change now.
7. How did you get your present job? If you are a stay at home mom, how long did you need to plan that move? Applied for it just like everyone else. Having the master's degree helps.
8. Did your parents influence your choices of jobs over the years? Nope. My father told me that my bachelor's degree and a dime would get me a cup of coffee. When I got my Master's degree, he asked me if I realized what kind of people I'd be working with. My mother has been absent since birth, physically since I was 10.
9. What advice would you give your children on careers? Do something that you're passionate about and can support your family.

dejavu

2009-10-16T07:15:00.000-07:00

Bizarre dream last night. I received a phone call to babysit for a family I used to babysit for in high school. I accepted and was supposed to be at their house at 7 or 7:30. I began walking and was panicking because I couldn't remember which time and was afraid of being late. So I began to run and remembered that I can't run fast in my dream. I told myself I wasn't dreaming and looked down at my feet. I saw I had running shoes and began to run. However, I didn't have socks on and my feet were coming out of the shoes and I couldn't get a good foot hold to run. I rounded the corner of the street I used to live on in the neighborhood where I went to high school. I saw a group of people loading up their SUVs and trucks with camping gear. I walked up and said I was looking for someone who I was supposed to babysit for. They told me they never heard of them. I figured I was dreaming and that the phone call to babysit wasn't real. I walked down the street and found a little grocery on the corner. I stopped in and the man told me that he fired his staff. I offered to take a part-time job to help out. He looked me up and down and said "I'll have you behind the chocolate counter selling chocolates." I accepted and reminded him I could only work part-time because I worked at night. I remember asking him about a job for my son, who I imagined was still 17 and in high school. He told me he would call. An old woman came in and looked sad. Another adult mail told my soon to be boss that he needed to tell his mother and he couldn't bear to tell her, though I have no idea what they had to tell her. Did I mention the family is of Middle Eastern descent? Bizarre!

2009-10-15T22:48:00.000-07:00

http://fridayfillins.blogspot.com/

1. So are we going to figure out what's going on?

2. Uncertainity (not a misspelling) is what's up ahead.

3. I love to get reactions.

4. Leave me love of some sort.

5. I walk a narrow line, teetering on the brink at times, knowing I can fall either side.

6. Love is the true elixir of life!

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to having an adult beverage with an adult, tomorrow my plans include possibly more of the same and Sunday, I want to clear my head!

What a weekend!

2009-10-14T14:56:00.000-07:00

Friday...went to lunch with a friend. Got a phone call from another friend on his way to Idaho for a business meeting. Talked to another friend from Ohio.

Saturday...made breakfast for a friend when he came back from Idaho, then we went shooting for the day, had a nice steak dinner (prepared by Moi), and watched a movie.

Sunday...talked to three friends while trying to get things together to head to BC for Thanksgiving - didn't get out till noon. Got to my son's then decided to drive 3 hours (actually took 4) north to get my DIL's grandma so she could spend Thanksgiving with us. Had my bank card frozen because my bank thought an unautorized person was using my card...had to use cash (thank goodness I had some on me). Sat up till 3:30 a.m. chatting with g'ma Rose and my DIL and laughing...had a great time!

Monday...had a scrumptious Thanksgiving dinner...turkey, ham, veggies, potatoes, pie, and great company!

Tuesday...got up with grandsons and got them ready for school while DIL drove her g'ma back home to Little Fort (took her 8 1/2 hours to get back home, then she had to go straight in to work). Had lunch with one grandson at his preschool and got to say goodbye to both. Headed back home at 3:00 p.m. and didn't walk in the door till 6:30! What with road re-construction on Hwy 97 in BC and the hour long wait at the border, I was exhausted...but did manage to squeeze in a phone call from a friend in Ohio and see another friend here for dinner.

Also got an email that I start work on November 1 - yes, I'm back in the land of the working!

Let's go for a ride...

2009-10-09T18:22:00.000-07:00

http://fridayfillins.blogspot.com/

And...here we go!

1. Sweet dreams are wished upon me, but seldom occur.

2. Plans are made especially for me.

3. Silliness permeates the mood until passion takes over.

4. I have no special plans for this Halloween.

5. Outstanding or not I enjoy the moment of perfect realization.

6. What I can't have is what I want right now!

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to self-absorbtion, tomorrow my plans include self-gratifcation and Sunday, I want to visit with family in BC for long weekend (Thanksgiving)!

Had a nice lunch with a friend. The food was so-so...the fried rice was not like any I've ever had, but it was okay. Besides, the conversation with Marty was the focus anyway! Too windy to go shooting, so may do so tomorrow. I really enjoy meeting new people and making friends. Was concerned about that, but I've had great luck. Really looking forward to beginning work again and meeting even more people.

caught in a time warp or space contiuum

2009-10-07T12:01:00.000-07:00

This week is certainly turning out to be a bit odd. Seems that others' lives are running parallel to mine...and it makes me wonder.

2009-10-05T16:28:00.001-07:00

I didn't get the job I applied for. However, my application has been forwarded to another section at the same agency for another open position. I remain hopeful!

2009-10-04T23:18:00.000-07:00

http://moodymonday.org/

Hoping to be a leg up in the job department! Stay tuned...

2009-10-04T20:11:00.001-07:00

And so what do you do when you find yourself falling in love with someone, but you're not sure that it's really love? And what do you do when that person isn't over someone else? He says his heart skips a beat when he sees her vehicle, or a vehicle that looks like hers, or someone who reminds him of her, or when he gets a phone call or text...

what he doesn't know is that it happens to me when I get a call from him and hear his voice and when I spend time with him.

I fear the worst...I feel the impending loss and heartache over this.

Dejavu

2009-10-04T09:39:00.000-07:00

Went shooting today with Bob. What a great morning...shot his .45 and .22 rifle. Shot my .357. Hit gourd targets with his .22, and came within inches of the targets with the other two. I enjoy shooting and know where to go now, but Bob said that since I like it so much, he'll go shooting more often too. Having a time finding .38 spl ammo though. When I do find it, gonna stock up.
1. What was the last thing you put in your mouth? Does food count?
2. Where was your profile picture taken? In the back of a boat on the Nile River.
3. Can you play Guitar Hero? No, but I can probably hum a few bars.
4. Name someone who made you laugh today. What was it about? Bob...he told me dirty jokes.
5. How late did you stay up last night and why? Well after one because I was laughing about dirty jokes.
6. If you could move somewhere else where would you and why? I'm already here because I'm close to my son and his family.
7. Ever been kissed under fireworks? There's always fireworks when I'm kissed.
8. Which of your friends lives closest to you? The ones who are here.
9. Do you believe ex's can be friends? With benefits? I believe they can; it's the exes who seem to have a problem with it.
10. Do you like Dr. Pepper? Don't know, never met him/her.
11. When was the last time you cried really hard? A few days ago. Really hard as opposed to just sniveling? I never do anything half-assed.
12. Who took your profile picture? The guy in the back of the boat on the Nile River.
13. Who was the last person you took a picture of? My grandsons.
14. Was yesterday better than today? It's what I aim for...today's not over yet, but I'm hopeful. Why? I pay attention and learn.
15. Can you live a day without TV? I've gone lots of days without TV and I'm still here.
16. Are you upset about anything now? Not at the moment.
17. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? Sometimes I do, other times not. If I perceive that it's a journey to find the real true one, then I'm okay. If I'm feeling lonely because I haven't found the real true one, then I wonder "why bother?"
18. Are you a bad influence? When it's called for.
19. Night out or night in? I'm a 'night in' kinda girl, but am willing to do a 'night out' if needed.
20. What items could you not go without during the day? Toilet paper, water, and phone.
21. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital? My dad (and that was back in 2007)
22. What does the last text message in your inbox say? Don't do texting.
23. How do you feel about your life right now? I feel my life is where it's supposed to be at this moment.
24. Do you hate anyone? Why, yes I do.
25. If we were to look in your Facebook inbox, what would we find? Dirty jokes.
26. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass? You bet!
27. Has anyone ever called you perfect before? Nope, but I have been told I'm 'pretty."
28. What song is stuck in your head? Superstar by Sonic Youth.
29. Someone knocks on your window at 2 a.m., whom do you want it to be? Not gonna tell, but the person knows who s/he is.
30. Do you (or did you) want to have grandkids before you’re 50? Considering that I'm not 50 yet and I have two grandsons (aged 3 and 7), I would say definitely!
31. Tell us your Saturday night. Dinner for a friend and lots of dirty jokes!
32. Do you think too much or too little? I think too much and usually about the wrong things!
33. Do you smile a lot? Probably too much and at the wrong time, and sometimes till I'm giddy!

up and at 'em!

2009-10-03T00:35:00.000-07:00

http://samanthasaturday9.blogspot.com/
1. Has a relationship been effected by how one of you slept? With my ex...his snoring was so loud, I couldn't sleep, so would end up out on the couch, where I slept fitfully.
2. What side of the bed do you sleep on? Since I sleep alone, I sleep right smack in the middle of it!
3. Do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach? Start out on my side, wake up on my back.
4. Describe the bedding on your bed right now. Matching sheet set with ivory cotton blanket and floral comforter. How does it change with the seasons? I take the floral comforter off in warm weather. Are you particular about your pillows or linens? Must have cases on the pillows and the top sheet tucked in.
5. When sleeping with someone, do you hog the bed, steal covers, or snore? I was accused of hogging the bed, but never heard complaints of stealing covers or snoring.
6. What do you wear to bed? At a minimum, undies and t-shirt; otherwise, jammies. I've also fallen asleep with my clothes on (but not my shoes). If it varies, explain. The variance is dependent upon how tired I am.
7. No matter how much you love someone, would you rather alone? No, but even though I may be in love with someone, doesn't mean they are with me. Therefore, I am alone.
8. Tell us about a time when you awoke in bed, saw the person next to you and thought, "Oh, no..." Not gonna put that here, but I certainly did say "oh, no..."
9. Tell us about a time when you awoke thinking it was a different day than it was. That would be this past Thursday afternoon...I was so tired from the night before that I napped during the late afternoon and woke up wondering what the real time was and the day.

2009-10-03T00:18:00.000-07:00

http://fridayfillins.blogspot.com/
1. I have a history of falling for the guy with the sweetest eyes and who is not all that available.
2. Why I'm not viewed as "the marrying type" is something I wish I knew.
3. I'm eating (or recently ate) food that is healthier for me.
4. Bob called me this evening to help him stay awake while he was on the road.
5. So that's it, that's the last straw...not gonna get serious with anyone again.
6. Settling is NOT better than nothing!
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to relaxing, tomorrow my plans include laundry and preparing dinner for myself and a friend and Sunday, I want to work on cross stitch projects!

A new, new beginning...

2009-10-02T16:20:00.000-07:00

Took in a family member (an 'adult,' mind you). Knew there was some potential risk involved. Explained the rules (90% - pick up after yourself; 10% no lying, no stealing, maintain personal hygiene and personal responsibility - which was explained in detail). Six weeks later, no improvement, attitude, unfettered sense of entitlement, and demand for unearned respect brought this chapter to a close. As if that wasn't enough, his immediate family, who didn't step up to the plate initially, turned on me like a pack of pirahnna. That's gratitude for ya!

http://thursdaythunks.blogspot.com/
1. What color is your mouthwash? It's included in my toothpaste (Listerene), which is sparkly green.
2. Do you remember your first phone number? I remember my first phone from 6th grade on. Have you called it recently? No, I'm afraid I'll pick it up in a past or future life.
3. BPD in OKC's question- Do you have a super-secret hiding place and what's in it? Yes I do, and I'm not telling what's in it.
4. When was the last time you used a pay phone? That would have been last month when Canadian border agents refused to allow me to take my son's clothing into Canada (they didn't find him in their immigration database, therefore, were not going to allow me to take clothing to him "because they weren't going to contribute to his comfort.") WTF???? So I had to go back into the US and call from a payphone there to let my son know I couldn't cross this time. Wish I had enough clout to get them transferred to the border shack in the Yukon.
How much did it cost to make the call? The call cost $1.75 (US dollars).
5. What was that noise?A tree falling in the alpine forest in the Yukon.
6. Stef H's question- how long is a woodpecker's pecker? Long enough to do the job.
7. How many comments did you receive on your last Thursday's Thunk? None, since this is my first post. Ask me next week.